The non-stress test went very well-- he was obviously very active. We really struggled keeping the heart rate monitor on him because he was moving so much! It was evident from this test that the baby was doing fine. During the ultrasound, the technician became very quiet and it was clear to me that something was not right. She wouldn't show me the baby's face and she quickly took the picture off the screen. She said, "The picture is showing some things that I think I need to show Dr. Talraja." Off she went and thus started my tears flowing.
The OB/GYN office I chose had 5 doctors on a team working together so each time I would go in I would see a different doctor with the knowledge that whatever day I go into labor it could be any of the 5 doctors on call. Dr. Talraja was my least favorite in the practice mostly because of her formal, non-personal style of dealing with me as her patient. When she came in to check my ultrasound, she had a completely different demeanor. She was gentle and soothing in her voice, she rubbed my arm, and had sincere care in her eyes. Though this would usually be comforting, it only made me MORE concerned about my baby.
She told me that the fluid around the baby was "cloudy" and that could be a sign of either fetal bleeding or meconium. She didn't suspect that it was blood because of how much movement the baby was doing during the non-stress test. So she was fairly certain it was meconium, or the baby's first bowel movement. This is very dangerous for the baby to start breathing in while in the womb. She also said that the baby had the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck. These two issues led her to the conclusion that I needed to go to the hospital ASAP. I told her I was not comfortable being induced and that I would rather wait until my labor started naturally. At this point she became very serious and said that if I choose to forego her medical advice by not going immediately to the hospital, I needed to sign papers saying that I am no longer under the care of my OB/GYN. Of course I couldn't do that!
I was so scared and also somewhat MAD that I had to be induced. This was not part of my birth plan!!! So Josh & I went home, even though we weren't supposed to, and packed our bags. I figured an extra 30 minutes wouldn't matter that much, plus I needed the time to calm down. I was sobbing and so scared. This is not how I pictured going into labor! We walked into the hospital, and the thought that went through my mind was that when I leave here I will be holding my baby. It took a while to get processed, but by 6 p.m. my induction had officially begun. I spent that night watching movies & hanging out with Josh and I tried to sleep a little, since there was little to no pain at this point.
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Today we took Hunter to Toys R Us to shop for presents for his 1st birthday. We went up and down the aisles looking at the toys and showing them to him. This was the first time Josh & I had shopped for toys for our precious little boy. Talk about FUN! We had such a grand time. We put Hunter on the ground and showed him some of the toys to see how he would interact with them. I had the best time watching his little eyes light up and then seeing his huge smile. He would go from toy to toy trying it out, banging on it, and turning it over. It was clear there were a few that were his favorites and those are the ones we got for him. We also went to Costco today to buy cupcakes & drinks for his birthday celebration.
Both of these days show great preparation and anticipation of his day of birth. But I much prefer today over last year. Toys and food vs. doctors and needles. Yea, that is a no-brainer. Plus the joy of getting to hold my baby and see his precious face is much better than the anticipation!
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