feeling cynical

I am learning a tough lesson.

Have you ever looked up to someone that you don't really know but admire from afar? When I was beginning a new profession in Virginia, I began looking up to the leader in this field in the area. I of course didn't know him but everyone knew of him, especially in this field.

Through some crazy events I have actually met him and done some business with him recently. And what I have found has been so disappointing. It is clear that he has not gotten ahead with values that I consider important-- like honesty. It has me wondering... do you have to be ruthless and manipulative to be successful in this profession? And if the answer to this is yes... then is there any way I could ever even begin to make a career out of it?

I believe you can be honest and upright and still be successful. But how disappointing it has been to see the poor business practices of someone I once thought was worthy of admiration.